Monday, July 24, 2006
i shall tink of a random topic n tok abt it.....hmmmm... since no1 is gg to look... i can choose 1 tat i like....wahahaha....let c the suay topic shall be maturity...hehe... i tink i m a bit sot today...heee...wat does it mean to be mature...i seriously have no ideas... does any1 tink tat i m mature...i doubt it... i tink i m stil a kid...sometimes i even feel some adults r even more childish than i m....some like ahem ahem....i heard ppl sae u have to be mature to go into relationships ( bgr)....i dun tink so... i feel tat is these relationships(all) tat realli allows any1 to mature...is the experience tat allows one to noe more abt themselves...allows one to carry themselves well in front of others...allows one to grow mentally...tat is wat i meant to mature....the reason i admit i m immature is tat i m head on...unable to tink calmly...unable to sae the rite tings at the rite time.... in fact i m juz a little kid....i go with my heart rathar than my brains most of the time....is tat the prob wif mi...or is someting else...even when my tings get taken away...i can do nth abt it when my brains ask mi to....my heart tells mi is btr tis way.... isnt it strange how the brains a highly intelligent ting have to listen something tat is less smart than mi...but tat's mi...i guess i m juz a weirdo... hahas....now comes a time where my brain listens to my heart again....although i wish i do nt listen to my heart so much....but the brain seems to have a weak spot for the heart....i have no choice.... even when tat ting happens...my heart stills wan mi to hang on to tat...mature meh? mi? i dun tink so... let's hope i can get thr tis sooner or later.... i realli hope wat i feel abt maturity is true n i made no mistakes abt it....hiding in a croner of the world...
looking in tat direction....
- looking out
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
i m dead... some1 is gg to spam my tagboard... cry!!!!!!!
hahas.... :)
in fact i dunno i m angry or happi....angry coz of the earlier part of the day....happi coz of the later part of the day....according to maths....it shld be balanced offf... tink i getting damn lame over here".............. faster faster................... very busy!!!!!!"
like onli they busywe nt busy mehwill she believe tat i can totally step away by NOW!!!!EVERYTHING SHE CAN DO HERSELF DE... IF I WAN...everytime to run away 1st is her... she throws all the leftovers for us... i starting to tink wat will happen in the future....gd luck to those hu will be there... those few...."go in go in........ waiting....." nt i wan to sae anything.....
the whole place cramped like mad alr....yet still wan all of us to get inFOR WAT? DOOR GODS AH!!!!!in watever case... the limelight are nt us... wat for wan all to go in....dun ever make promises tat u cant do.....the same old ting again n again n again....i getting bloody tired n sicked of it le...has it change??????no nvrso wat's the pt of making the promises u cant dothe same goes for those few hu have made the speeches.....wat's the pt of winning the votes when u noe tat u cant possibly do tat for them.....somtimes somethings need a miracle n miracles dun drop by often....so wat's the pt of making empty promises...wat's the pt of chiding ppl when u cant find another person...is nt like i have a gprs of the person inside mi....the person have legs n neither is she or him my gf/bf....wat for the person have to report his/her whereabouts to mi....even if he/she is my bf/gf they oso dunnned to report to mi wat.....scolding ppl for something they didnt do or didnt noe is one of the worst tings... u settle 1 ting wif a person...u expect the person to tell every1.....but the person forgets or feels tat he/she has their own way of doing tings... wat's the pt of scolding some1 nt related to the matter for something tat falls short of ur expectation.....dun miss lessons dun miss lessons....like bloody hell i wan to miss lessons....like bloody hell i have no idea tat the lessons r impt esp for tis yr.....like bloody hell i dun understand wat is more impt for mi....but when u accept something.... an extra responsibility is given to u...u have to carry thr it....they arrange to be clashing wif lessons wat can i do....juz throw them there n go away on my own.....wan to complete everything but it wan to continue another day...is it my fault?perhaps i shldnt have taken upon something tat i will suffer thr it.....perhaps is realli my fault....perhaps everything is my fault rite from the start........i juz wan to hide in the corner of the world.....
looking at tat direction.... (:(
- looking out
Monday, July 17, 2006
let's use a bit of gd english for once....in retrospect...sometings r nice to be left unsaid...sometings r nice to be left unheard...sometings r nice to be left undone....in fact i have not the slightest clue of wat i have been doing fot the past wks....wk after wk...slacking after slacking...i juz dun have the mood n i dun c the need to continue....i juz wan to go off silently....perhaps i m getting pissed at tings i dun like.... perhaps my expectations r getting higher....i realli have no idea wat the hell m i doing....i juz wan to hide in the corner
looking at tat direction
- looking out
Thursday, July 13, 2006
i getting sick of the present...
i getting sick of the future....
i getting sick of everything....
i dunno wat i wan...
i dunno wat i wan to go...
i juz a place for mi to sit in n stare into thin space...
hopefully wif some1 i wish to be wif...
SORRY to all ppl out there i offend today......
sometimes is easier to shut up to tok rite....
so i shld juz shut up....
tis is another story....
nt wat u all tink....
haizz.... actually doesnt realli matter...
gt scolded today for laughing at other ppl coz of their mistakes....
y cant some ppl juz take it when they have done something wrong...
i dun understand y..
i m partly at fault but the way they r taking...
i realli dunno wat to sae...
haiz....
maybe i expect too high of them...
maybe my standards r too high...
maybe i shld learn to shut up...
starting tml...
ask mi something abt others i will juz give a smile n walk away....
nth more....
it's abt time i mature again...
i suddenly realise i didnt mature much after i was in sec 3.....
i shld do it over again....
i wan to hide in a corner...
looking in tat direction....
- looking out
Saturday, July 08, 2006
wahaha... dunno how to blog... feeling unfeeling....
- looking out
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
ppl realli do change
is a fact tat is undeniable
although i wish they do not
maybe they do nt change
is juz tat i change from time to time myself
so my perceptions change wif mi
but more likely the reason is
i haven seen the true them yet
every1 tends to hide behind the mask
i understand tat coz is a protection shield to protect oneself
but it juz irritates mi a bit more than usual
when i see behind the mask
somtimes the frienz i have r juz like tat
when i tot they can be my best frienz
something i hate juz to pop out like tat
is juz tat i dun noe them well enuff
i juz wanna hide in the tiny corner of my world
watching the world goes round
- looking out
Monday, July 03, 2006
it's time to start tings anew afresh wif my birthdae, isn it....
let c.... my wish tis yr... top o levels... lol.. juz jk... quite impossible...
todae is quite fun.... esp during the afternoon...
have lunch at roy, alson n melvin shop wif ljs ppl... then abby did something funni when we were walking there... she didnt noe is my birthdae n she ask mi whether wan to buy cake for des n liting whose birthdae is 1 day be4.... nt much gg on in the shop juz tat roy keep jk ard...yeah
yeah gary n yj bought the cake tat des dun like... wahaha....MINT!!!!!!
i like n THEY force mi to eat alot.... sobs... ALL BULLY MI!!!!!
then i went jp( my home) n i saw some1 there wif his gf... quite funni... i tink...
sometimes i juz wish tat there is some1 alwaes there for mi......
- looking out
testing
- looking out