Sunday, October 28, 2007
have any1 experience a strong sense of deja vu be4...
nt juz once but... wait let mi count...
1, 2, 3, 4...
4 times in a row... hahas...
tis muz be a joke...
maybe is juz wat they called fate...
hahas... i dun realli noe...
fortunately nth happen juz yet....
sometimes it set mi wondering whether is it up to mi or up to them...
perhaps i should be more aggressive
but somewhere deep within mi tells mi to be more passive...
juz wait and let nature take its course...
somehow somewhere there will be something waiting for mi...
i dunno wat's wrong wif mi...
perhaps i should nt even take the 1st step out ba...
i shall hide in my own little world n bother abt myself =)
yup... tat's wat i will do...
been to ocs... they told mi the trg is tough...
but i wonder how tough can it be...
juz carrying some guns n gg thr ns should be easy or at least it seem so...
coz no1 has complain abt the tough trg inside after ns...
hmmm i wonder but i guess as e generation goes by...
the trg will be more and more slack as the younger generation becomes
more n more pampered....
kk... i shall go work if i fail to get into the work attachment...
On a side note: it hurts to noe the truth so perhaps yea...i should noe wat i mean... hahas..
- looking out
Monday, October 22, 2007
hmmm... guess is time to blog after the huge layer of dust i have collected...according to pek, is longer than sarah...i wonder but i bet is lesser than des eh...hehe...dunno la... dunno if it is good or bad...i would sae is in the middle or even lower ranks...tsk tsk...is quite disappointing for some subs eh...n surprising for the others...hahas.. yeah... i pass all subjects but is nt veri gd eh...ok let c...gp essay- 27/50gp compre- 25/50total gp- 52/50 Echem- 39/80 Ei wonder wat i did wrong.. .i was expecting at least a 50% and above coz i was quite confident abt the section B but oh well it wasnt tat good...tsk tsk... wat is wrong wif mi.... rarrrrrrrrrrmaths- 46/100 Etis is disastrous la... wasnt even expecting to score tis low...k i was after the paper but well my maths isn tat standard n i noe it...i panicked n i dunno wat to do or rathar i tot it was correct but then....haiz... nth to sae anymore....Econs- 31/50 Cfine fine... it is rathar ok but yea...there is smth for mi to do... how to make it jump 2 grades but well my results for econs has been like tat yea...tsk tsk... hmmm esp drq shld get higher... rar.....bio- 66/100 Bthe onli subject tat i was rathar satisfied but oh welllit didnt even hit an A n i bet the marking was thoroughly lenient as usual...An A shld be achievable but yet i did not... rar....tat's all coz i dun have chinese...lol... i m crazy as usualll...afterall the results sux but i will be promoted...there will be alot things tat i wun be able to do le...like h3 subjects.. .tsk tsk... i wan to do rarrrr............sianz this type of feeling sux as susual...gotta do some studying during hols i hope...i wan more time !!!!donate more to mi....k so far i have applied for external h3 maths at ntu but highly doubt i will be able to get in....n i gg to apply for work attachment wif spf tml...submission will be sianz...n i m gg to get my scuba diving course gg no matter wat... there are tons...lastly i will n muz pass my bm cpr cert by the end of tis yr....n there will be more np stuffs gg on even though juz finished atc ytd....yea yea... it may seem little but to mi is quite alot le...it seems to take up uncountable study time n most importantly slacking time which is oso my slping time... n not to mention tat i have to complete 4 art outings... haiz...tis is so so sucky....damn tis is gg to be a super long post le....1st time in mths...yea... still trying to get along wif the class...somehow isnt as close eh...y dun ask mi ...i m searching for the ans as well...is quite difficult u noe...but hopefully every1 will be promoted if nt there will be even lesser ppl in class...somtimes life sux...y do ppl like to care abt grades so much...till tat they become so diff when it is things concerning abt the marks...fine i admit i m veri concerned abt marks as welllbut nvr to tat extenti will feel bad when i help others when it will affect my marksbut i will still help coz it will be wrong nt to help others when they need it...the latter def win the former...i have no doubt abt it...when i ask for smth i will give smth in return...when i borrow smth from eg him...i lend him back my completed 1 for reference as wella fair trade... how can some1 be so ignorant abt helping 1 another when they need it... can some1 juz tell mi y....tsk tsk... is everything abt marks...do u need to be so concerned abt it although singapore is a competitive society?tat means singapore education has failed thoroughly if tat's the case...isnt it... the main ting abt education is nt abt juz marks n moving on to the next level...is abt moral education... every1 noe the politically correct ans...but how many realli does tat...i do tat but nt often and onli do wat i tink is impt on morals...i still dun understand y but those actions realli disgust mi...expect ppl to help u, expect ppl to remind u abt work...yet u dun intend to provide help to others... wat is tis.. u tell mi...wat is tis...haiz... is disappointing to meet tis ppl...at least they dun exist in my previous classes be4...tat's y i cant stand it ba but is juz reality eh...hmmm.. next topic ba...tiring seh... 1 time type so much...tsk tsk...matters again... y is it alwaes like tat...juz tat is much much worse tis time...i dun even noe wat is gg on in mi now....whether is it there anot...juz wanna to noe myself...perhaps is becoz of the previous tat affect mi now ba...hopefully i can juz brush it thr without thinking so much...if not it will turn out to be much worse???i dunno hopefully it will stop looking for mi n maybe i will stop looking for it....so does it belong to mi or do i belong to it....i realli dunno...anyway i m nt pw noe it all...i realli dunno much at all...perhaps u all shld look for some other pplhu keep loooking for her to ask them instead of micoz i rarely went to find her...juz those shitty tings like i n r submission date, wat to do for tings in op...all those la...juz those things...i m juz gg wif my guts....be it the better or the worse....stop calling up my god damn house phone to ask mi abt such stupid stuffsask those ppl hu keep gg to the teachers ba...or rathar ask ur own guts depending which 1 is more suitable...or even btr... bring ears to school if u r gg...or if u r nt gg to school... is ur loss nt mine...damn it...i m nt ur god damn recorder where u can play n repeatcoz u didnt go school for no reason nt like u r sick....damn it...rar.....................................................................rarrrrrrrr.....yup yup i have finally finished posting...so yea... nt bad lei... heeeeeeeeeeesmth off my chest.... n lastly i will n nvr be a closet mugger....if i mug i will tell u... if i sae i didnt...tat's the truth... damn u all...dun u ever dare to call up my house no n sae tat if i m nt at home...u dare to ask my family members if i m out studying... f it... super pissed off....rarrrrrrrr....juz wtf is wrong wif u ppl.... wake up ur bloody ideas...i dun need to bet but if u ppl r gg to keep tis up...u will c the other side of mi...nt juz the quiet silence side...but the exploding side...scolding any1 hu irritates mi....i mean it... sometimes anger can be put off juz by swimming n blogging...they merely procrastinate the process....i believe tat there will be a chance for mi to do so.... =)
- looking out
Thursday, October 04, 2007
damn damn damn....hahas... finally everything is over....all the exams in promo are over....but the worse is yet to be....the stupid results....i can juz stupidly predict my results....might juz get retained... if get retained maybe i shld juz go to poly eh....hahas...gp-Ubio- Cchem- E (depends on my luck coz mcq all anyhow put without looking at qs)Maths- UEcons- UCEUUU.... is a failed grade....gonaa retain =(maybe juz maybe i will score btr for nxt yrpromos if i still stay in the school ba...
- looking out